im not samwise gamgee
hufff…
what is this all about? u’ve changing mood instanly. If birds flying south its a sign of changing, at least i can predict that every year. U, i never know the minute, u mad suddenly, cant get it to speak..
u told me that im this and that, u asked me to do this and that. And ive tried my best to fill all those just to get u around..
what in the world that im still trying, begging, hopping? or am i just a fool to keep trying..
what about words u’ve been givin me? as if u count on me so much, and u’ll be here forever. Guess u never know what u’r saying, u never know what u’r doing, u never know what u’r writing huh? But somehow i keep remember every single of’em.. foolish..
hey, this isnt about love..
i didnt stand againts u when u get mad, doesnt mean that i dont care, coz i know its useless. Im not throwing gasoline when ur on fire. its useless, its useless, its useless..
when u do something bad, u never get me mad, coz i know u wont listen anyway. Mad at u only get me tired. I choose to tell u smoothly, keeping u from getting upset, no matter who’s wrong..
when i do something bad, u get mad, u get upset, and u get away, just like a magician, disappear only after me! I have to run over u, i have to catch u, i have to seek u, and it takes a day, a week even a moth for u to finally come back. can u just please listen to what im gonna say bout it? atleast b4 u jump into conclution and get gone. i dont know are u coming back this time..
it never be a big deal for u to leave huh? yea, i dont know if that bcoz u so scared to say “i need u”, or i really am nothing to you. just another name in ur little black book. who am i? what am i?..
hey, this could be about love..
ur worth to wait, but i deserve much better than this.. never know its gonna be so hard even if its just to keep u as my fella. I thought i know u but im not, i thought u care but ur not, i thought i could try to love u but i find myself already in love with u. just as a brother..
its not just about you and me, thats why ive been hiding, ignoring, killing my feeling. Its not that i dont want u, i just cant.. i cant..
im getting away from comfort zone to get better circumstances, tired making excuses for why ur not around, think its time to sit and talk face to face, getting things straight but ur already gone..
its ok.. im not gonna stand on ur way this time, just becareful, the road may get u hurt coz there’s so many obstacles, get well prepared! u know where to find me. let me know if u need some help. im gonna be around..
im not Samwise Gamgee, he’s the best damn friend ever, no matter how bad he’s being hurted and tired, he keeps close to Frodo. Im letting u go, but still, i do care bout u. Keep that in mind..
Regards
